Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Free Right

Hey guys! this post is something i call "free write", and thats when i express my feelings, say stuff that might not make sense, but u may relate to.
This post is very important to me in many reasons, one of them is that finally i got to express my feels and thoughts publicly, i finally got the courage to do it, and i am.

To tell u the truth, i dont know what im writing. I just felt something uncomfortable inside of me that i had to let out, so i took my charger, charged my laptop, and now im writing.

Hope u like this post, and its something u can relate to ...

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Today my fellow readers i want to "start" my post by talking about two subjects .. trust and honesty.
To me those are the most important things in the inter WORLD.
These two words are linked to each other, if ur honest, or "seem" honest people will trust u, right?
Now a days u dont know what those things lead u too, and that is so frustrating.
You just think to ur self, "is that person really trustworthy?", "is that person really worth telling him/her my secrets ?" "is he telling the TRUTH? "
 Sadly those question can not be answered at the moment.


I had a fair share of betrayals in my life, and im not that old, so there r more to come unfortunately, ive been manipulated, betrayed and heartbroken. By who u may ask ..
The people who made me taste those horrible three things are  my so called "friends".

Yes people, my friends..  and not just any friends, my close friends

Everyone has that best friend that is just like another sister or brother, and of course u may have ur arguments and differences, everyone has .. but what happens if those arguments go to a certain level where everything comes crashing down on U, and u feel those tiny pieces of ur heart scattered on the floor in front of u.
U feel that ur whole world is sinking before ur eyes, that nothing else matters. But let me tell u something, if u continue to mourn other these stupid things, ur life will not go on, trust me on that one.

I still tell myself that i dont care and "6af", but i know that i sure as hell care and those things cannot be ignored.
  I had friends who left me to be "friends" with other people, i had friends who used and manipulated me, and i had friends, or "a" friend that just stopped talking to me for no particular reason at all.

How did my heart handle all of this .. strength, patience and family .. without those i dont know where i would be by now ..

Im telling u right now that life isn't fair and certain people arnt fair either, i just wish those people had a sign on there foreheads written " u can't trust me", or " u'd better not be friends with me, im not worth it", or even better, them going to hell .

Im sorry if i seem harsh or if ioffended any one, but by writing this post, i can actually sleep now and not suffocate on my loaded heart, and maybe relax for a while . 

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