Chapter 14

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Previously:


- i dont know what to say, im so shy .. im such an idiot! -

Me: " i .. "

Zyad:  " please .. just say it one more time.. "


Me: " ..."

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The reason its so hard to say "i love you" the second time is because i actually heard myself say it to him before...

i need to make sure i mean it, i need to make sure he means it. I dont want to be heartbroken, and i dont want to break his heart either ... ive disappointed many people in my life, and i certainly dont want to disappoint Zyad .. 

I do love him, i really do .. but is this so called love going to fade or stay with us forever, is it going to shield us from every negative thing thats going to come our way? is it strong enough?

this is risky ... but life is all about taking risks, right?

 - i took a deep breath .. -

Me: " i love you."

- a smile formed in his beautiful face, a smile that made me realize everything is going to be ok, that smile made me think of all the good times we had and we will have, that smile was my future, my forever. And thats why im glad i said "it" one more time. -

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June 20, 2011 (one day later)


My mom and zyad were helping me out the hospital bed, where my dad was talking to the doctor and my sis is gathering all my worn clothes.

Me: " i cant stand, ta3bana .. "

- i know im whining , but i cant help it, it hurts .. everywhere ... -

Mom: " 5a6wa wa7da yuma bes 5a6wa oo teg3deen bil wheelchair .. "

Zyad:  " ka yebt ilwheelchair .. "

- i sat down slowly , afraid i might break something in my body, since zyad and my mom were holding me like im made of glass,  i started to feel like i really am made of glass .. -

Doctor:" good morning fay, hope u fell better ?"

Me: " awesome .. "

Doctor: " love the enthusiasm! so .. here are the pain killers u can have for the pain , once a day fay, NOT more .. "

Me:  "ok"

Doctor: " i know ur a bet cranky and i dont blame u, but u have to lighten up a bit sweetheart! u have an amazing support system around u "

Me:  " i do .. "

-  i look at my family and zyad, and feel so selfish and mean inside .. ive seen kids who have cancer, who r dying that are orphans .. i should thank god that i really do have an amazing support system and an amazing family .. i really am blind -

Me:  " im sorry .. ive been blind "

Zyad: " no u havent ! "

Dad: " yuba, 7abeebty, 6abee3y 2tkuneen chethy.. lat tet2asfane 3ala shay intay ma 3endich ta7kom fee "

- but i can control of it dad, i just don't want to -

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We arrived at the hotel at the afternoon after i went through some check ups .. we went to lunch and invited zyad with us. Dad started asking zyad a few questions ... i mean a few annoying , "its not ur business" questions, but zyad answered them with every ounce of respect and delight. and i was sitting there ready to bolt out of my seat.
After lunch i asked zyad if he could take me to the garden, and honestly my family looked so tired they can barely keep there eyes open, so i wanted to give them a little break .. 

Zyad: " do u want to sit on the bench? "

Me: " is it comfy ?"

Zyad: " comfy ba3ad walaay .. tabeen ayeeblich mu5ada 2anesa fay "

- i knew u was teasing me, and i secretly liked it -

Me : (-.-)

Zyad: "  ughh, yes its comfy, just please dont look at me with that face, it makes it so hard for me not to kiss you .. "

- why does he have to say these things! they r utterly unnecessary and they make me blush! i dont like blushing .. -

Me:  " shut up "

- he smiled his quirky, irresistible smile that sometimes i just want to rip out of his face and held one of his hands in mine and the other around my waist so i can keep my balance, but when i got up i felt a little dizzy -

Zyad:  " r u ok? "

Me:  " yea, i just feel a bit dizzy .. "

Zyad:  "thats because u stood up fast .. so sit down slowly.."

- i sat down on the worm bench slooowwly, and i felt surprisingly better .. -

Zyad:" better?"

Me:" yup"

- after we sat down comfortably on the bench, i rested my head on zyad's shoulder and linked my arm into his -

Zyad:" comfy "

Me: " mmhmm"

Zyad: " fay?"

Me:" why do u always start a question while referring to my name first ? .."

Zyad: " because i love ur name and i like saying it , but if u prefer i call u ... Bob, i would be happy to"

Me:" no, i do not prefer bob .. Earl "

Zyad:" i like the name Earl .. "

Me:" no u don't!"

Zyad:" no i dont .. "

- we laughed for a while, laughing not because of what we said, but how stupid our conversations r, but then i stopped .. our stupid conversations r probably the best conversations i have ever had with anyone .. -

Me:" lets go somewhere .. "

Zyad:" how about the movies .. "

Me:" movies r highly overrated .."

Zyad:" oh, i got the best place .. "

Me:" oh god, please dont tell me we're going to mars this time "

Zyad:" oh no! we're too good for mars , i have a better place :D"

- here we go -