Friday June 14, 2011
6:30 am
Today was the day of pure exhaustion. my schedule was full of appointments, tests, everything ...
we all woke up early to eat breakfast so we can go do all my tests on time.. the first test was fine, all the necessary crap .. and then came the blood test, which disgusted me, after that was the MRI thing ...
they scanned my head, it was kind of hot, they also stuck me with more needles, but i stayed strong the whole way, plus my family "ma ga9eraw", they were by my side the whole time, my mom held my hand in all my tests, and when she felt i was afraid, but it was pretty obvious since my hand was shaking the entire time ..
believe or not we finished all my tests at 2 pm! time flies so fast ...
our last appointment was with my doctor, he came in, full head of white hair, a white beard, and a friendly face.
Doctor : "well hello everyone, my name is Dr. Andrew Fisher (the name is made up) , and im going to be fay's doctor for the time being :) "
- we all said hello, and he started asking me some questions -
Doctor: " so fay, have u felt some pain, dizziness, or did something happen that made u realize there is something wrong ? "
Me :" no, umm i dont know ... i think i felt something was going to happen to me ... but i didnt feel any pain, nothing that indicated there was something wrong with me .. "
- its true, i didnt feel anything, but i knew something was going to happen , i knew -
Doctor: " oh, well, dont worry it happens .. "
- he started asking me more questions, if i had any kind of allergie, if i had a disease, or a sickness. he also started to touch my head, showed me some pictures of different stages of cancer ... -
Doctor: " so, the results r going to be done in a about 3 days, and we already made the appointment, and i also wanted to add that nothing is 100% sure yet, so dont worry that much.. ok? ... "
we thanked him, and said our goodbyes ..
when we were walking on the bridge on our way to the hotel, my mom told me something that did not only surprise me, but actually made me stop in my tracks
Me: " WHAT?! "
Mom: " u didn't show any emotions from the first day all this happened, im getting worried. this has helped many people who went through this ... path ... '
Me: " but we r not sure if i have cancer or not! "
Dad: " 7abeebty, going to a psychiatrist isnt a bad thing ! "
Me: " i didnt say its a bad thing, i just dont think its necessary "
Mom :" can u just try it out for me ? .. "
Me: " fine "
anyways, that was the least of my worries, but what im "really" worried about is if my therapy appointments r at the same time as my part-time job. yes, i signed up for "give a heart". its an amazing organization, and i need some good deeds, this is gonna be good for me ...
i finished eating lunch with my family when it was almost 3, and i was going to be late for my first day!
so, i excused myself, and i was on my way to the hospital again, it was a 5 min walk and i went on the elevator so i didnt take long...
when i reached the 9th floor, i walked out of the elevator to see walls cover with beautiful, colorful butterflies, cartoon characters, white clouds, and they even have a wall that was painted by the kids there ..
i was looking for the supervisor, or the person whos responsible for the organization ..
there was a woman that had a red shirt that said "give a heart" at the back and a name tag, all the people working there had blue shirts, so i figured she was the one.
Me: " umm, hi, i just signed up .. and i .. um .. "
- i ... didnt know what to say -
the girl : " oh hiiiii, my name is maggie, and im the supervisor here, i checked the list yesterday, u must be fay .. right ?"
Me : " yea .. "
Maggie :" so, where r u from, there r many international people here so .. "
Me : " im form kuwait "
Maggie : " oh cool! there is one member here whos kuwaiti, u should meet him! "
- him .. wait, i didnt see any kuwaiti families here .. -
Me : " oh "
Maggie : " so here's ur shirt, with ur name tag "
Me :" thanks :) "
Maggie : " ohh here he is ! Zyad! come meet our new member ! "
Me : " umm no its ok "
- oh my god, this is gonna be embarrassing -
Maggie : " zyad, this is fay, fay, this is zyad "
- zyad, believe it or not looked like a typical kuwaiti guy, he looked like he was 17 or so, he had that thin but a bit muscular kuwaiti body, very tall, short brown hair , ok, he was handsome... but, his eyes, his eyes were these hazeli brown eyes, but it had something inside them, something mysterious .. -
Zyad : " hii "
- he seemed friendly, yet , he just said hii .. -
Fay : " hey "
Maggie: " well, ill keep u guys, zyad do u mind showing fay around, sorry fay but i have a lot on my plate ;( "
- no, no no no! dont go please !!! -
Me: " yea, its ok, ill be fine :) "
Zyad: yeah, dont worry, ill take care of her ;) "
- seriously -.- -
Me : " :) "
Zyad :" awel mara ashoof wa7da kuwaitya ihny "
Me: " ana awel mara ashoof wa7ed kuwaiti, bes this is the second day faa ... "
Zyad : " ohh this is ur second day? .. "
zyad showed me around, i met most of the kids there, i tried not to get emotional, i haven't showed any the whole trip, and im not planning to show any now, the kids there were just amazing.. and thats an understatement, they entertained themselves by the smallest things, no complaining, no whining ..
i met a boy, he was 10 and his mom died the second day they new he had cancer, when he looked at me, he said a couple of word that just made me sink .. they just killed me
the 10 year old boy : " u have no idea how lucky u are "
- those words just made a huge whole inside my heart, i couldnt help myself, i didn't care if there were people here, i dont care if zyad was staring at me, i just went to a corner, and just let it all out , i let everything out, i cried and cried .. -
Zyad : " its ok fay, its ok ... "
- i cant belive im crying in front of a complete stranger, but in this moment part of me doesn't care -
Me: " u dont understand!! "
Zyad : " yes, i actually do "
- i looked at him, nose red, eyes filled with tears -
Me: " how ? "
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finally i got to finish chapter 7!!!!! i hope u guys enjoy it and please tell me what u think :*
>> @epiphanyblogger
>> ask.fm/epiphany88
6:30 am
Today was the day of pure exhaustion. my schedule was full of appointments, tests, everything ...
we all woke up early to eat breakfast so we can go do all my tests on time.. the first test was fine, all the necessary crap .. and then came the blood test, which disgusted me, after that was the MRI thing ...
they scanned my head, it was kind of hot, they also stuck me with more needles, but i stayed strong the whole way, plus my family "ma ga9eraw", they were by my side the whole time, my mom held my hand in all my tests, and when she felt i was afraid, but it was pretty obvious since my hand was shaking the entire time ..
believe or not we finished all my tests at 2 pm! time flies so fast ...
our last appointment was with my doctor, he came in, full head of white hair, a white beard, and a friendly face.
Doctor : "well hello everyone, my name is Dr. Andrew Fisher (the name is made up) , and im going to be fay's doctor for the time being :) "
- we all said hello, and he started asking me some questions -
Doctor: " so fay, have u felt some pain, dizziness, or did something happen that made u realize there is something wrong ? "
Me :" no, umm i dont know ... i think i felt something was going to happen to me ... but i didnt feel any pain, nothing that indicated there was something wrong with me .. "
- its true, i didnt feel anything, but i knew something was going to happen , i knew -
Doctor: " oh, well, dont worry it happens .. "
- he started asking me more questions, if i had any kind of allergie, if i had a disease, or a sickness. he also started to touch my head, showed me some pictures of different stages of cancer ... -
Doctor: " so, the results r going to be done in a about 3 days, and we already made the appointment, and i also wanted to add that nothing is 100% sure yet, so dont worry that much.. ok? ... "
we thanked him, and said our goodbyes ..
when we were walking on the bridge on our way to the hotel, my mom told me something that did not only surprise me, but actually made me stop in my tracks
Me: " WHAT?! "
Mom: " u didn't show any emotions from the first day all this happened, im getting worried. this has helped many people who went through this ... path ... '
Me: " but we r not sure if i have cancer or not! "
Dad: " 7abeebty, going to a psychiatrist isnt a bad thing ! "
Me: " i didnt say its a bad thing, i just dont think its necessary "
Mom :" can u just try it out for me ? .. "
Me: " fine "
anyways, that was the least of my worries, but what im "really" worried about is if my therapy appointments r at the same time as my part-time job. yes, i signed up for "give a heart". its an amazing organization, and i need some good deeds, this is gonna be good for me ...
i finished eating lunch with my family when it was almost 3, and i was going to be late for my first day!
so, i excused myself, and i was on my way to the hospital again, it was a 5 min walk and i went on the elevator so i didnt take long...
when i reached the 9th floor, i walked out of the elevator to see walls cover with beautiful, colorful butterflies, cartoon characters, white clouds, and they even have a wall that was painted by the kids there ..
i was looking for the supervisor, or the person whos responsible for the organization ..
there was a woman that had a red shirt that said "give a heart" at the back and a name tag, all the people working there had blue shirts, so i figured she was the one.
Me: " umm, hi, i just signed up .. and i .. um .. "
- i ... didnt know what to say -
the girl : " oh hiiiii, my name is maggie, and im the supervisor here, i checked the list yesterday, u must be fay .. right ?"
Me : " yea .. "
Maggie :" so, where r u from, there r many international people here so .. "
Me : " im form kuwait "
Maggie : " oh cool! there is one member here whos kuwaiti, u should meet him! "
- him .. wait, i didnt see any kuwaiti families here .. -
Me : " oh "
Maggie : " so here's ur shirt, with ur name tag "
Me :" thanks :) "
Maggie : " ohh here he is ! Zyad! come meet our new member ! "
Me : " umm no its ok "
- oh my god, this is gonna be embarrassing -
Maggie : " zyad, this is fay, fay, this is zyad "
- zyad, believe it or not looked like a typical kuwaiti guy, he looked like he was 17 or so, he had that thin but a bit muscular kuwaiti body, very tall, short brown hair , ok, he was handsome... but, his eyes, his eyes were these hazeli brown eyes, but it had something inside them, something mysterious .. -
Zyad : " hii "
- he seemed friendly, yet , he just said hii .. -
Fay : " hey "
Maggie: " well, ill keep u guys, zyad do u mind showing fay around, sorry fay but i have a lot on my plate ;( "
- no, no no no! dont go please !!! -
Me: " yea, its ok, ill be fine :) "
Zyad: yeah, dont worry, ill take care of her ;) "
- seriously -.- -
Me : " :) "
Zyad :" awel mara ashoof wa7da kuwaitya ihny "
Me: " ana awel mara ashoof wa7ed kuwaiti, bes this is the second day faa ... "
Zyad : " ohh this is ur second day? .. "
zyad showed me around, i met most of the kids there, i tried not to get emotional, i haven't showed any the whole trip, and im not planning to show any now, the kids there were just amazing.. and thats an understatement, they entertained themselves by the smallest things, no complaining, no whining ..
i met a boy, he was 10 and his mom died the second day they new he had cancer, when he looked at me, he said a couple of word that just made me sink .. they just killed me
the 10 year old boy : " u have no idea how lucky u are "
- those words just made a huge whole inside my heart, i couldnt help myself, i didn't care if there were people here, i dont care if zyad was staring at me, i just went to a corner, and just let it all out , i let everything out, i cried and cried .. -
Zyad : " its ok fay, its ok ... "
- i cant belive im crying in front of a complete stranger, but in this moment part of me doesn't care -
Me: " u dont understand!! "
Zyad : " yes, i actually do "
- i looked at him, nose red, eyes filled with tears -
Me: " how ? "
_______________________________________________________________________________
finally i got to finish chapter 7!!!!! i hope u guys enjoy it and please tell me what u think :*
>> @epiphanyblogger
>> ask.fm/epiphany88
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